Hallome

The breeze finally starts flowing in and green leaves crumple into dust; I can feel myself smile, a smile that’s plastered on my face year after year always returning. Holidays have always been such a treat yet I forget how meaningful they are; I take them for granted even though they only happen once a year. But this time around I feel really excited. I can’t wait until pumpkins are lined up on each dry desolate porch and stiff skeletons are hanging off trees. For me this time of year is special. Memories flow back to me like a river to the ocean, smoothly picking up small details, and adding them into a bigger picture. I love all the bad costumes overpriced as they are. Even all of my weird costumes that no one understood. 

Every year I had the hardest time deciding what kind of freak I was going to dress up as. I never liked being something basic, “I wasn’t like other girls *tucks hair behind ear* “. Because of this I ended up having a lot of weird costumes. I mean I had some normal costumes like  the classic pumpkin baby that almost every mom had their kid do when they were 1. I also went as Disney princesses but, as I got older my costumes took a bit of a turn. One year I decided to be a flipping raccoon and the next I was Wednesday Addams; but the weirdest and frankly most regretted costume I ever had was the year I decided to be a character from a minecraft roleplay series. The character’s name was Kawaii~chan. She was on a youtubers channel called Aphmau. In case you couldn’t tell this wasn’t one of my proudest moments. In general I was a pretty weird kid. I think because I’m so “quirky” and just “different”, Halloween is my favorite holiday. Halloween is all about the freaks. I mean we literally celebrate killers and dress up as them to get candy knocking on strangers doors. Or We’re basically homeless furries depending on what you’re wearing. Kinda weird if you ask me, but I love it! Who doesn’t love murder am I right? Though I did always wonder why some people would choose to be a color for halloween. If you know what I mean they would wear those full body, one color suits that would even cover your face. Don’t know how they breathed but whatever. 

Anyways, getting back on topic when I was young I was very fascinated by deranged subjects such as death. I would wonder about the afterlife and question my parents on it to the point my grandma was worried something was wrong with me. My dad just thought it was cute and harmless and I mean I guess I turned out alright so it’s all good. However, I do have a creepy story from when I was a kid that I find pretty funny now. 

One day, when I was around 6 years old, if I had to guess, I went up to my dad about my favorite stuffed bear and asked him 

“ Dad, does Protector Bear have a soul?” 

Curiously and a little freaked out he of course replied “no, he doesn’t” 

“ Oh good cause if he did then I’d have to have my brother kill him when I die so he goes to heaven with me”. 

Definitely a story that gets me a few wide eyes and worried faces but I often can’t help but laugh when I tell it or at the very least find it funny in my head. I like to think that story connects with my love of Wednesday Addams. My first time seeing the Addams Family I knew right away that I was going to be Wednesday Addams for halloween. She was perfect and I honestly idolized her as a kid. I thought she was the coolest person ever. 

Now, my love for halloween doesn’t just stem from weird memories and even weirder costumes. It mainly comes from my cousin Hailey who’s always been my best friend. Every year we would go trick or treating together. I remember our last year of trick or treating together. We would take turns taking all of the candy from bowls. I remember Hailey talking to me saying,

“ Frick them kids this is our last trick or treating sesh (session) and we’re gonna make it count!! NOW MUSH TO THE NEXT HOUSE” 

Those are wise words that always stuck with me. That year we got so much candy the pillowcase I had carrying all of it nearly dragged across the floor. These days Hailey lives out in Florida, but because of that I really treasure what we had when we were younger and she’s the reason halloween is my favorite holiday. I’m gonna miss her this year but I’m glad I got so many years in the past with her. Halloween will forever and always be our holiday.